So we all know that I’ve been on bed rest for a few weeks. And that’s like super serious bed rest, like get up to quickly pee and that’s it. I would take baths like twice a week, no showering, just [moving] as little as possible. And we all watched that.
But I was always, always bleeding. I’m about halfway through pregnancy, and the blood has been going on for like a month, maybe a little bit less than a month. But we’re talking like more than your period, girls, and definitely not spotting. A lot of people spot, and it’s usually fine. But yeah, mine was a lot. So every time I’d go to the bathroom, it would be blood. But honestly just laying there, it would be blood. But today the big difference was that, it kind of was like if you were to turn a faucet on low and leave it there, just kind of leave it.
And it’s so weird because I feel really good. I’m usually at my happiest pregnant mood-wise. And I feel happier than I do not pregnant so that’s why it’s so, so hard for me to come to terms with. Yeah, so it’s kind of like just always on. It was at the point today where it was just, like, never stopping bleeding. And that’s, obviously, very bad.
In the simplest of terms, we can say my placenta is really, really weak. So I feel really good. The baby is so healthy, growing stronger than [my other children] Luna or Miles. He moves a lot, he moves so much earlier than they ever did. He’s like a roly-poly and we have a million great pictures of him. He’s just so different than they were. So he’s so strong, and I’m so excited for him because he’s so wonderful and just like the strongest little dude. So I can’t wait for him. But basically, he’s the strongest, coolest dude in the shittiest house. So, his house is just falling apart. It didn’t have a good foundation to begin with though…but yeah, he didn’t have the strongest chance at the very, very beginning.
All we’re doing now is trying to make sure that he’s got a lot of fluid around him and that I’m resting, obviously, as much as possible. It’s just hard because there’s not much you can do. I’m in that weird in-between time of it being really dangerous to try anything. Basically if I can make it through the next few weeks, if little boy can make it through the next few weeks, then you know, we can go from there and be able to get through the danger zone or whatever. But we have to get through this first. So yeah, it is scary, but it’s scary in a way where there’s just nothing to do…trust me, we’re on it. We’re trying everything we can.